Today I was writing a test in stochastic processes. And I was failing. In the end I turned in the paper blank, but in the middle of all this, suddenly I got a "vision" or something similar I relised that this was the last paper I will ever fail.
Last january when everything came down on me and I had to reconsider everything in my life. At that point I was failing badly. In school I hade in 3 years of study achived 32 credits. That is what most people achive in 1½ term. I hadent got a single credit all year. In all of 2005 I had got 1 kiss from 1 girl. Thats all. I was bankrupt, I was about to get evicted. I had pushed all my friends away and for me life felt empty and full of hardship with no rewards. I was in hell.
My family helped me out economicly, I started to give more efforts to my studies, I managed to keep my apartment (just a studentroom but still.) After producing some results. I gave myself into the seduction community. I started to turn my life around. I was still failing alot of tests, I could still not force myself to study even remotly enough. But I was moving in the right direction. I was pushing myself. As Al Pacino put it in any given sunday "I was clawing out of hell 1 inch at a time."
But even tough I´ve been to hell, I wasnt ready to take all the steps at the same time. When I focused on school I put down 1 years of work in 3 months. Then I focused on seduction and school suffered. Then I focused on school and seduction suffered and back again. Now I have a foundation, I am decent with women, I am still 1½ years behind with my studies, but I have some discipline. I didnt know it then but I wasnt ready for greatness yet. Untill today.
During this test I was about to fail, I knew that from now on I will put the effort needed into every subject. Simply because I finally understood. I knew that I can and will do it. Because I finally relised that it was what I wanted. This is not just an empty promise this is reality, this started as a vision but now it is the truth. I am truly great. As Napoleon once gave Marshall Ney the title Bravest of the Brave. I now know that I am the greatest of the great!
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Monday, January 15, 2007
FR: First Night out using direct
Tonight was my first night out using the direct method, it was a well interesting experience. I approached around 15 sets with mixed results.
The things that stood out for me was the following:
* Opening is kinda harder, u must be fully comitted and powerful.
* If executed properly after the opening u are basically done with attraction after opening, she will commit to u, as long as u are powerful enough
* Excuses are very strong and the hotter the chick the harder to overcome these.
* Its a very different thing doing this honest and direct vibe, compared to using routines, since u are exposing yourself and putting "you" on the line instead of some KJ from an internetforum.
Now to the "hottie". This was the most beautyful girl I ever approached, she was a 10, when she walked time seemed to slow down. I approached her over the whole room. Slowly very powerfully, its amazing how many toughts cross your mind in during those 3 - 4 seconds. I opened with "Hi i´m Biggie, I saw u and just had to come up and talk to you." She was blown away, her eyes started to shine with attraction. "I´m Michaela" she said and it was on. More so I knew attraction was done, this was by far the most powerful opening I ever done in my life. I started vibeing and she all into me, she even buys me a drink. So I isolate her to nearby sofas and begin to building rapport, now my society blocking is starting to kick in VERY STRONGLY, and I start ask of my self who am I to get this hottie? I can really feel it taking over. (For the record I am 180 cm tall 110 kilos, overweight and in very bad shape, on looks I would rate myself a 2, not that it really bothers me, but this time it appearently did.) and even tough I knew I could kiss her, I couldnt force myself to do more then taking her msn, not even when her lips where 2 - 3 cm. Eventually she relized that I was not her prince, yet. And the glow on her face went out and she ejected.
But now I know that I can do it.
Now I know...
The things that stood out for me was the following:
* Opening is kinda harder, u must be fully comitted and powerful.
* If executed properly after the opening u are basically done with attraction after opening, she will commit to u, as long as u are powerful enough
* Excuses are very strong and the hotter the chick the harder to overcome these.
* Its a very different thing doing this honest and direct vibe, compared to using routines, since u are exposing yourself and putting "you" on the line instead of some KJ from an internetforum.
Now to the "hottie". This was the most beautyful girl I ever approached, she was a 10, when she walked time seemed to slow down. I approached her over the whole room. Slowly very powerfully, its amazing how many toughts cross your mind in during those 3 - 4 seconds. I opened with "Hi i´m Biggie, I saw u and just had to come up and talk to you." She was blown away, her eyes started to shine with attraction. "I´m Michaela" she said and it was on. More so I knew attraction was done, this was by far the most powerful opening I ever done in my life. I started vibeing and she all into me, she even buys me a drink. So I isolate her to nearby sofas and begin to building rapport, now my society blocking is starting to kick in VERY STRONGLY, and I start ask of my self who am I to get this hottie? I can really feel it taking over. (For the record I am 180 cm tall 110 kilos, overweight and in very bad shape, on looks I would rate myself a 2, not that it really bothers me, but this time it appearently did.) and even tough I knew I could kiss her, I couldnt force myself to do more then taking her msn, not even when her lips where 2 - 3 cm. Eventually she relized that I was not her prince, yet. And the glow on her face went out and she ejected.
But now I know that I can do it.
Now I know...
Goalsetting
Alot of guys including me struggle with setting goals and following trough. I used to think that setting goals is useless and kinda limits your life. But since I started doing just that, my life and happyness have skyrocketed!
So without further ado here are my goals for 2007:
School
This year I will finish my masters in probability theory including a thesis based around the usage of Martingale Theory in finance math. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Martingale_(probability_theory)
Health
2007 is the year I finally will lose 15 kg and my Biggie Bank. This includes cooking healthy food for myself atleast 6 times a week. (In the past eating pizza and burger n shit have always been an easy way to selfsabotage)
And listen trough Tony Robbins Personal Power II.
Love & Relations
I will continue to work on my social skills and improve every part of my game. I will both raise my direct game to the same standard as my natural game i atm.
So without further ado here are my goals for 2007:
School
This year I will finish my masters in probability theory including a thesis based around the usage of Martingale Theory in finance math. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Martingale_(probability_theory)
Health
2007 is the year I finally will lose 15 kg and my Biggie Bank. This includes cooking healthy food for myself atleast 6 times a week. (In the past eating pizza and burger n shit have always been an easy way to selfsabotage)
And listen trough Tony Robbins Personal Power II.
Love & Relations
I will continue to work on my social skills and improve every part of my game. I will both raise my direct game to the same standard as my natural game i atm.
Hey guys
This is the B. Whatup.
Here I figure I´m gonna post my goals and in every aspect of my life. Sometimes I´m gonna write up a few articles for fun. Hope u gonna enjoy this lads.
Here I figure I´m gonna post my goals and in every aspect of my life. Sometimes I´m gonna write up a few articles for fun. Hope u gonna enjoy this lads.
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